Angry and sad lesbian needs help?

I discovered my sexuality about a year ago after looking back over all the signs and realizing that I wanted a gf and not a bf. My self esteem has been very low for several years. My friends try to help but we've never been very close so I don't feel that I can talk to them. I am a really sad person inside but on the outiside I look like an angry lesbian. But I AM angry. I'm angry about god making my gay. I'm angry that I can't find a partner. I'm angry because people who don't even know me put me down. I'm angry over an ex boyfriend telling everyone he "made me a lesbian". I'm angry, and I'm hurt and I'm sad and I don;t know how to get out.